Bittersweet

“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I — I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference.” Robert Frost

Some say that your life doesn’t begin until you get to college. For some that may be true. You don’t encounter your genuine friends until then and you don’t experience your first real heartbreak as well. And for many, this is the case. What does that say about society and which we are as people? To have our lives mapped out in a linear path is a fallacy.

We evolve as people and we change with new experiences or at least we should. We change as people and to say we reach our peak in our teens and early twenties is heartbreaking. What’s the rest of life for? To wallow in self-pity? To reminisce over the yesterdays and inquire what our lives would’ve been? We talk about the good old times and how many times we broke our hearts?

Well, I am taking myself out of that narrative. I want to live in a world where my soul is touched by many, I want to have my heart broken several times, I want to find love in a pet even if it ends in heartbreak and I want to see the world without a filter. I don’t believe that we stop living when our biological clock turns 30 or 40 or hell even 70.

This is the time in our lives when we have the knowledge but don’t have to worry about someone’s opinion of us. We can just live a beautiful existence without permission. We can finally say to fuck you anxiety, Im in the driver seat or depression you can fuck yourself.

My life may not have been a walk in a park but its mine to control and shift the narrative. To say our whole lives are determined based on 10 years is bullshit. High school and college are just a period of your life, but it’s not the entirety. Therefore stop thinking that’s where it ends.

Your life is every day. It’s the awkward eye contact on the bus full of strangers, it’s the social draining grocery store visits, and its the time invested with your family. That’s life. That’s what it is all about. I want to live a life that’s constantly changing and evolving with people who I adore.

As we grow, we have to give up a few people along the way and that’s okay. What we get to keep from those people are the memories they allowed us to have. That’s a bittersweet pill to swallow. That’s life. We want to hold on to parts of our lives because we are scared of what’s next, we are afraid of failure and we are afraid of embarrassment. But we can’t run from the present and cant relives our past forever.

We lower our gaze and focus on what’s right in front of us.